Thursday, October 13, 2005!
HandWritten on; 11:19 AM
Yeah... exams are realli offically over fer mi. bud not fer those sec 3s taking A maths. I wanted to celebrate cuz fer us. sec 2s. no more studying? and few more weeks and its holidae. dun realli have much in mind in wad i wanna do. bud willl c. i found out my maths results todae. was realli dissapointing. couldn control my emotions and tears started running down my cheek. i studied maths most. why izzit lyk tad? was i too over confident? i still can't understand, realli. i mean lyk why? how ? could tis even happen?! it is gonna affect my whole entire life! i pray and i realli hope i can get my choices and go into the first klass. and no matter how i m gonna struggle tym and my life. i m gonna make sure and prove to everione that i m able to cope wif it. i noe pple may tink i m going too much fer my dance.. and i do not wanna take it as my job nxt tym. is juz a great way to relax. training of muscles. and stuff lyk tad. 1 week bout 8 hrs? i dunno.. i actuali wanted to prove my parents wrong and tried being depentdent on my own. i cld do it fer the first 3 terms bud wd happen now? i m sick and tired of the things i have done and have been always wrong or misunderstood. wadeva i do. Joining a cca take it fer an example. it has already cause so much misunderstanding. i dun wan it to continue anymore. when will their itching mouth stop? dun they get sick and tired of it? my ears ar already. bout pple toking to mi. bout the misunderstanding they heard. why does no 1 believe mi? i m no perfect person..hu is in this living earth??? won't they juz giv pple a chance to explain themselves and not juz sterotyping pple. Wad Hell Do They Get??????? i m dead serious bout wad i m saying. U can all tink i m a lala go happi person. U noe wad. u have juz saw mi onli. u did not look at mi.. noe de differences. Sometyms maybe i juz be a lyk a robot. a thing which pple believe theres no heart. kick and vent their fustrations on. order and order. Why m i doing this? isit juz my character? y can't be a super rebellious gal. hu doesn care anything. and juz use a lighter to burn the exam paper lyk 1 of our skul mates. no body eva noes. i juz wan everithing to be ok fer mi. juz let mi get into the triple pure science and A maths klass. Haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz... =(
