Friday, February 24, 2006!
HandWritten on; 11:17 PM
It was since december the 26 i posted my blog. was either i din had the mood or was too lazy to blog. Awy mani things happened. I dunno how to put them in details in words. Is the feeling that u can nv be able the desribe. Ya. tts how i feel. Lost. Confused. I actualli wondered tt pple understand tt i m no robot. Dat i hav emotions juz lyk everione. and how sufferring i m now. Not juz friendship and stuff. My studies ar killing me. I dunno y i m so conk out fer my studies. My best fren said tt i m taking it too far. and expecting to high frm myself. i agree. Problems lied within me. And problems ar created frm ur ownself and not juz blaming others and ur nv at fault. So way or the other it will be ur own. experiences tells me tt y not let a min number of pple suffer than to tell the whole entire world, and tt if u feel tt ur the worst. There will definatly be pple suffering worse than u. Honestly i muz sae. Situations can be controlled by hands bud rumors can nv be. And tt when rumors spread. Its always 1 badly hurt victim and a veri horrible murderer. When it cld be the other way round. CSI is 1 example. I dunno wad excatly can make mi proud of myself. Or feel happi. or sumthing. Pple start poking into my life. i juz they ar juz being big fat kpos bud i apprieciate cuz issn tt = to pple CARE bout u. Hm. 1 of my skul core value. Maybe there shld be more KPOS and Gossip mongers in the skul to promote it. Issn that true? my principal will be damn happi =D Haha. Not funni. bud the thing is no matter how matters stress me out. Studies.. testes.. Exams. Problems. i mean BIG problems. i feel 1 way or the other lucky. cuz i have Real frenz ard mi to encourage mi and willing to pull me back and face reality. My best fren is 1 example. No matter wad happens we will be ter fer each other. And everithing we do its always put to a test. dunno wad test. And when we go through it together. our friendship grew bigger and stronger. is not juz seeing each other in skul everidae and tok to each other. is the process of going through difficult tyms and sharing joy to each other makes it betta.. is this actualli causing my illness?! hmmmmxx.. i realli dunno? i hope not. Is hu you wan to believe in and always hear both side to before making a judgement. not juz hearing 1 side and make a conclusions and when facts are still at mist.guesses ar made to fill the holes of facts. Issn it true?! lyk a maths equations u can guess and put any number down bud u will nv get a correct ans and it will be be equal u gotta work it out. Find out facts den state the ans down. Is not y izzit called an equation at the first place? SOLVE it. i will go through tisno matter wad and not take life as a game tt when i loose i can restart again. there is no rewind button.tt is a promise i made to myself and to everione. =D
