Thursday, April 27, 2006!
HandWritten on; 6:05 PM
I have been waking up at 5.45 and slping at 12 few the past few nights. I dun deny tt i feel exhausted. Honestly speaking i m realli tired mentally and physically. I cld slp in social studies klass following chem klass.. I had to pinch myself on and off during ss making sure my eyes won't juz shut =x! I m really tired. Chem had hald a period free. Phew. I slept and was woken up by not de bell! I din even hear the sch bell. Okay. It was kester's banging of table.. It woke yesika and i up. Tired us =/ Oh. I had physics and a-maths test todae. I hope i can top locals fer these 2 testes. I got confidence in myself. I noe i can do it. I had tuition wif alan yesterdae. WooHoo! lucky kester din come! i noe i m being realli evil. But I can't stand tt stuck up face excatly lyk camel! de best part is tt he is my twin! I wonder if its another reflection of me. I wanna noe the truth. Nite passed realli fast. When i was wif Nobody. Sweet sweet memories..=)) Dear dear dun juz give up yet now okay. We need failures mah. At least u noe how to pull urself back up. I dunno if i can be as powerful as u to pull myself back into action. aft a-maths. I went to check the detention room. Sotong is still sotong. ohmeegoshi! she drives me nuts! Thou i m already nuts. But ya! She drives me crazy! Even nunthicha and rina is also gonna ahem la har. HEHE =)) My 2 successers. I hoped i made a right decision. What if i m juz as wrong =/ I dun wanna close my eyes and pray miricle to happen. Okay aft checking on them. Bing jie asked mi to come down. I knew sumthing was happening but i juz cldn firgure out wad and hu was it concerning. I killed quite a number of brain cells already. Okay. It kinda shocked me. Or maybe not. They were gonna fight wif another gang. I dun disagree wif dear dear. But i tink they ar over reacting somehow i feel tt they are juz childish enuf that fighting resolve everything. And that it feels intoxicated? to see more patients landing in the hospital. I got kinda pulled in and tt wif anything happens to bing jie. I would msg his chief fer help. I was reluctant to do it. And had alot of hesitations. I wanted to tell Nobody. But looking at him playing soccer blithefully. I decided to wait till his free to tok. Yeah.I tok to him over the fone. And tears started rolling down my cheeks. I cld feel how exhausted i was. And tt i needed a big rest. Physically and mentally. I guess my wax of coulourful candle is burning both ways again. And its burning fast.
Having tuition now i guess
Alone?
Becareful...
Sweet memories i have
