Friday, April 28, 2006!
HandWritten on; 11:59 PM
My week has been a disaster. Except fer those 2 nights tt i cld c u. Tt was the only joy i had fer the whole week. Was to be able to see and tok to u.
I have been putting my mind into a whirl. I m all messed up. Starring at blank field. Making perfect things into nonsense. Screw Nobody's dae up. Making things frm bad to worse. His already not feeling completly alright. And i made it worse. I feel lyk i m worse den i beast worse den bitch. I wan u to feel happier. But wad comes knocking into me? My mood. I hav been over-stressing. Maybe i taking it overbroad. Budden! Does anyone how many things comes knocking on my head. Every morning when i wake up. seems to be a torture. I feel lyk a waste. Juz contributing to the world by breathing air polluting the world wif my waste. I dun wan u to read tis. I dun wan to be ur burden. I dunno. I juz feel tt ure not alright. I noe have done wrong. Done many mistakes. Repeating them. Tell me. I wanna change. Dun hide frm me.
Maybe i m juz overloaded. I hope i will be alright once i tire myself. So tired till i drop on my bed till i dun nid to wake up fer this moment. I wanna run away frm tis reality but not away frm u. my worries has brought it upon to tis world. To tis living state. I m running overtym. Running over-heels. Cuz i i m all messed up.
I love u. I m terribly sorry for all the things i have done. I dunno how to make things up to u I can onli blame myself fer doing tis to u Sorry.
