Saturday, May 06, 2006!
HandWritten on; 6:09 PM
Ya rite. I m napping. So much fer tt word. Oh. aim` if u read tis. Take it that u had nv did. Not a single word out frm ur mouth concerning this and apologies not accepted.
To tink i cld nap. When i felt peenuts was angry. Nv felt nor seen it tis way befer. Maybe its juz me. Everything starts wif me wad. Wad do everyone want frm me? I cannot always give u sweet words and let everyone run away frm reality. Do everyone think tt this would work? Running away frm reality?! Not facing it. I noe i can't I learnt it frm the hard way. Mediation! So much fer tt crap. Mediate wad?! Short term shit. Or long term crap?! U tink tthings will juz solve it aft some shit mediation. NO! Its life. Things juz dun snap it these way. Even if punishments were given. U tink the victim or related to the victim pple. Will feel justified?!
Everyone is facing stress and preassure? Hu else is not. Is juz how u manage it. I got some shit media crap on my hand. And i nv fail to recieve disheartening messages rite befer the exams. U tink by telling the whole entire world tt i got sack frm media ease the pain inside my heart?! Lana gives a definate ans to herself. No! I will nv forget words lyk rude. Disrespectful and showing attitude to a teacher.
I dun enjoy self plight. Nor symathy. But can i get a break?! at least a dae. A dae fer me to enjoy. not to tink of work. even slping is a nightmare. Reality doesn wan to leave me alone. Its bugs me in my dreams. Ain't my conscience clear?!
I guess i m gonna hang myself up there. And enjoy the scenry. Heaven gates open up fer me. Let me see the north star. Let me ride on dolphins. wif a smile frm my heart.
Dun be angry already alright.
No matter how preassured u are
I will try my best to make u smile.
Even if u were to sob
I wan to be the 1 to clean ur tears.
