Friday, June 30, 2006!
HandWritten on; 6:11 PM
Ya. So much for winning first. I dun feel happy a single bit. Becuz the person i wan to share it the most is unhappy. Which made nt happy but sad n irriatated. I wan to share my joy. But end up sulking my way thru home. Wad a loser.
the 3.3 run. Was tiring, I had to go back to sch aft tt. for a solar project. Mrs Ho, asked my to perform during speech dae. I agreed. Wanting to share this news. Not glad to tell but became a wadeva thing. I dun wish to sae anymore.
So much of u being my burden u saying tt. Let me tell u tis. Is not working nor helping me to make me feel better. I had always tot tt i cld share both of ur joy and unhappiness. Yes. I dun deny. I always look forward to a dae. Tt i m happy and u being happy and enjoi tt dae. not sulking over the computer and everything else and found out tt i tear in my slp. Issit juz me or tt i freaking tired over everything. is not slping early de issue. I juz dun wan everyone to look down on me. And maybe let me hav my own view of certainties.
I won't leave u. Espcially lyk a tym lyk now. Yes, Its not de best. But if its the joy i onli wan frm u. I feel lyk a loser a failure in relationships. Maybe. juz maybe. I dunno..
