Thursday, August 31, 2006!
HandWritten on; 11:21 PM
i juz finish my tuition. i haven talk to aim` for the past 5 hrs! let me tell u sumthing, it was torturing! and is still is. I m always afraid tt i take him for granted tts why i always try my very best to keep reminding myself to treasure him. AHHH!! i m lovesick!! 5 hrs of not talking is torturing. I hope he is okay, Is lyk 11 plus already and he hasn called me or msged me! i worry alot... I hope he is alright Prayss... Still no reply frm him, I m nearly done with my bag i guess.. juz tt my toiletries not in, shoe olso not in, I m wondering now how to stuff everything in. my bag is fat enuf frm all the suviniors. Darn damn! having crams now, i will be on back to pills again.. I dun lyk pills! make me feel weak only, I hope aim sees my msg or replies me. I m really tired both mentally and physically every teacher i talked to, scolded me todae for going to japan, Teachers' dae was a flob. Ms lim gave me a bad thrashing scolding. i m wondering now if i have ever made a right decision. They made me feel tt every decision i made is wrong, and will be always wrong, is making me to loose the confidence in me. I feel lyk being an adult now. Their stress compared to me as a kid, I would rather have theirs. Have a family to lean back on. for me i dun wan to lean on others, I dun wan pityness and synpathicness.. I wonder whr i m going with u tml, Pls reply me.. I m really lost, thou i hope ure enjoying urself and u cannot hear ur fone.. Aim` whr are you ? can anyone or someone tell me ? i dun lyk this feeling.
