Monday, August 21, 2006!
HandWritten on; 9:57 PM
Anyone noe how tired i am? I m not physically tired but mentally, I m pressured everywhr else.. If sleeping was a solution I wld have done it long tym ago. But to me it issn, I suffer every night with my own problems. Trying to solve myself, blasting the music to the max till i feel that it deafens my ears, my numb myself till my tears that roll down which won't be felt, Its torturing.. Have anyone tried being me?? i dun wan sympaties or pitiness from anyone. Even if i m hard on myself, but i feel that it gets all worked out in the end.. I m tired, really tired.. I wanna close my eyes without tears running my cheeks every night and feeling so tortured by my own life.. Hu issn angry with their life, Hu doesn feel stress?! I feel the stress okay. it may not be the same as everyone or anyone. But its burning me both ways bad enuf. I dun wan to show to anyone. I feel lyk shutting myself frm the world. I m sorry for hiding this from u. But letting u noe tt i m stress and my problems is already alot from me, give me more tym to open up. I m used to keeping everything to myself, letting myself get burnt away. Sometyms when its my mood n u perk something dat i disagree doesn mean ur fault. Its juz dat, Sighh i olso dunno how to express myself. I dun wan u to be upset over me already. Concentrate on ur exams and take care of ur own health, I wan u be to okay and to stay strong no matter how hard the wind blows.
Sometyms i feel lyk i m wasting the earth's air. Being something i m not.
