Wednesday, September 20, 2006!
HandWritten on; 10:10 PM
I juz turn 15 yesterdae, I din had much of a joy during my day.. I had a test to take.. Many hmks to be done.. and.. I worry for Nobody, I din wan it to happen at all.. But i had to take it by my strive and juz let nature takes its course.. I feeling really down now.. But i dun wan to bother him much.. He is heartbroken enuf and i worry for him alot. Is already 10 and he hasn come online.. Reply a single of my msg and not even a call.. The short aft call with him made me felt tt.. How, I feel worse.. I dunno how to support him.. When i myself cannot even support myself.. Everytym i tink of my problems.. I feel lyk tearing.. as much as i dun wan to tear. I feel lousy.. I feel lyk shit.. I feel lyk i m invisible, another punching bag to my prefects.. I dun wan them pouring their problems to me. At least i try my best to help.. But hu can i pour my problems to? Yes, I have been crying to tt pillow.. Tearing nearly every night.. feeling so saffocated.. I wan to go out.. Shop till i go crazy till i drop dead on my bed.. Go enjoy what a teenage gal enjoys.. Something tt i have been missing out in my life.. I wan to go out with Nobody.. but i must understand him.. I dun wan trouble him.. he has to heal tt broken heart of his.. I dun mind he not telling my things. But maybe i m juz too curious? I dunno what i want.. I really dunno.. I wan a break.. I wan someone i can pour to. I wan to lean on someone shoulder.. But maybe the pillow juz works for me..
De stress accumilating in me.. is as wide as the sea
I cannot use my 2 hands to hold themFor once, I really felt someone really loved me
and u made me realise how much love can do to one person heart
How love can actually let pple do the craziest things in life
tt frenz juz tink that is crazy
I was touched by ure words, gifts and effort u done to made me feel really special
Thank you for everything..
I hope ure feeling betta now..
I can't do anything now, except to wait
