Friday, September 15, 2006!
HandWritten on; 8:12 PM
I nv expect myself to cry for the board again, I dunno what came into me, I juz burst out into tears infront of my dm.. I keep scolding my prefects, i keep giving them attitude!! Whats wrong with me?!! I mean lyk common la! Solana! what are u doing?!! U dun understand them, they dun understand you.. U juz scold.. Nosense issn it?! I was feeling so fastrated with myself till i slap myself few tyms to make myself feel betta... I rmb those words my dm said to me.. So now i noe u cannot take stress... U noe what stress i m having?! 10 000times the way i had before... I mean i m a kid yet my life feels lyk a nightmare.. I wan to keep numbing myself with things todae but i m really tired.. Really really tired... Can anyone juz shed undertanding towards my feeling.. And stop taking me for granted.. It was written on 15 sept, i juz din noe y i din publish it, Maybe i juz wan to continue hiding and withdraw myself frm the world. Maybe it juz works betta for me
