Thursday, January 11, 2007!
HandWritten on; 9:04 PM
Sch has started. Life hasn got any better. Maybe its just me, taking small things making it sound that its so big. Yes its me, I over worry and i m paranoid. Pratically with everything. Sigh... How? Things has not got any better, Better meaning? My tiredness and the feeling that i always wished i cld have thrown it away. But u noe what. I guess to pple i m always juz making things extra big and tt all this has been found by me. I feel so miserable sometimes, yet feeling intoxicated at others. Happy nth with sch but happy that i m living in this world. Raised by wonderful parents and that the love i have found is the 1 that replaces what is missing in my life by my parents. What else is new? Tuitions and dance, prefects and choir, studies and health. Which 1 comes last. Will be my health. I dun wan to be look down no more. I dun lyk being sad over and over again that what is happening to me is becuase i chose this volunterrly. I just feel so upset when thinking about it. I m nv okay. Never better. But always worse. Worse den last year. Nth to perk me up in the morning and yet a simple hello in the night. What have i expected? Too much i guess. That i feel tt i want the whole world to hail to me and give me a break. Maybe its right that i cannot realise my dreams becuase i m that dumb. I still want to work hard for my dreams. Even when everyone critise it and noone support me. Yes, maybe i m too ambitious. I wan to be. Thats my dream. I may not be born with 1 of the highest iq and not even the best eq. i just wan to be in my own world. Reaching for the sky and stars.
