Saturday, February 03, 2007!
HandWritten on; 10:41 PM
Sigh. this is the 3rd time i m rewriting! I keep pressing the wrong key! ^^
Hey bloggy! Long time since i posted an entry.. Life have been kinda hectic for me. I tink i m burning myself out. Mentally tired.. I m just glad that i have this special guy in my life that is always there for me. Even allowing to blow my top at him without blowing his. I m just very thankful that he is so understanding. I know my temper is horrendous. School, tuitions, cca, dance. I tink i m memorise what i have to do everydae. It seems more of a invisable shecdule or a personal routine. Sometimes i wonder if its the reasons why i enjoy surprises. Laughs. I guess i m just burnt out by myself. Worrying. Being paranoid. Being too detailed about small problems. Plus all these doesn concern my studies. Sigh. The more i think about it. The more i feel that its more of a hurdle for me to jump over. A hard one.
Nxt week is common test.. Hah! Laughs.. I m not even revising! LOL! fail issn it?!
My room is still being invaded but a bitch, I have been very revengeful. The anger in me has over powered me. I can even sense that i m so proud over the lower secs. I dunno how it happen. I seem like another girl dat i hate.
I feel that i m withdrawing myself away from my family. Feeling that whatever i do is never good. Every word that they say makes me feel worse. Is there a grudge between my parents and I? please.. Tell me. It makes no sense. **
I never shld have came this far
Why is everything so hard
In this perfect world, this cldn have happen
This make no sense. Its nth at all
I tink i need a miricle to make it thru
I feel like robbing u away
In this perfect world, I just wanna keep u
I dunno what i shld do now
I dunno where i shld go now
I just can't let u go
Not now not ever.
