Friday, March 16, 2007!
HandWritten on; 7:03 PM
Hey little bloggy, finally i upgraded and updated you.
Sigh.
My holidays ain't holidays. I did not enjoy a single moment of it.
What do you want me to do then. Tons of homework ain't complete. I wished i was already in coma. Not caring about reality. laughs! Big joke sol!
I do not know if this is considered an arugement. I suppose it is. I don't know how to react to it. I do not if both of us do not want to talk to each other or waiting for one party to call the other or just being confuse?! I don't even know which catergory do i fall in. I just know i been in thoughts. Thinking if its really my fault.. I feel upset. I don't understand. My mom told me things, her opinion. I do not know what i should do. Who should i follow. Should i just numb myself?! How about the happy moments u spent with him? Are u positivitly sure u can just allow yourself to forget that.
Solana what do you want to do now?! Really?! I really want an ans from you. WHAT DO YOU WANT! Are really being a childish princess here?! Or just don't understand why that had happen and being angry with it. Either way. People will just see u as a spoilt princess.
THEN U KNOW WHAT! ask them not to see me then! They were born with eyes that is to see the world. NOT TO SEE ME!
But you see solana. u are confuse. Your only idea is to numb yourself. Put urself in coma! Thats the only thing you say. I GET IRRITATED BY IT!
Thats your problem! YOU THINK IS SO EASY BEING ME! GO BE THEN! why do you think i study! NOT FOR MYSELF ASS HOLE! for people who keep thinking i can never make or do it!
GAL! LOOK! don't keep sympatising yourself will you?! THE WHOLE WORLD IS NOT GOING TO BOW DOWN TO YOU TO ASK YOU TO STOP BEING ANGRY! Nor a person will just start throwing flowers and star dust to make you happy! THIS IS NO FAIRY TALE!
JUST SHUT UP! I feel like smashing you!
I still love him alot. I just want him to be happy
