Tuesday, April 24, 2007!
HandWritten on; 8:31 PM
Let me say how i am feeling now, pissed off, worried, in a verge of breaking down, unsure.. Yes this is the amount of emotions running inside of me. Besides blogging here, i dunno where to express it. I am trying my best to control them within me. But i have a feeling that i am going to let it off very soon. Sigh..
I had syf yesterday. Choir.. Award : Bronze. Disappointing but true. I haven smile ever since i heard the results yesterday. Not only due to the results but the over duly childishness that has been occurring to me. Sometimes i wish to stop time. Walk up to him. Give him a slap and just tell him enough is enough. Let me elaborate, Boy A named Jian Hong has liked me dunno ever since when, forget it i dun want to talk about it. what ever i just have stated were not meant to be bragged about.
I dun feel like putting any more negative thoughts down here already. This is tiring, Torturing. Is making my upset. I have unnecessary things on my mind and i cannot study. I got an amaths test tmr. I dun want to fail again. I am worried about my deardear, I haven heard him ever since he reached sch. I want his shoulder now. I want a hug and he reassuring me that everything will be okay. I have lost my confidence. I want it back.
Deardear, Take care of yourself.
