Saturday, October 06, 2007!
HandWritten on; 11:15 PM
Hahh.. Life has been rather.. hmmmm.. better than last time. I guess. I have been more cheerful for the past few days. I wonder if its the end result that your results has reached its targeted aim. I guess it must be the case. I know I shouldn be complacent about it. And i know i am trying not too. I should do things out of revenge. I guess I have learnt how to not care about my surroundings. No. Wait. Actually I care but i care lesser. I just feel blessed looking at my other friends and classmates. Although my results ain't as good as them. I guess I feel that my life is more complete. More of like. My studies ain't tt bad.. I have got 2 best friends. A sweet boyfriend who never fails to take care of me. A loving and supportive family. I am going to repay them back for what that have done to me( of course in a gd way ) I gotta work even harder now for my dream results. Everything needs screwing. I am confident at nothing for the moment now. Hopefully 1 day before the papers start I am more confident. I pretty scared about my first paper. A maths.. What if I don't Ace this. It is my wish to ace this. To ace my E maths paper. To ace my Combine Paper. I got a target. I gotta work for it. I believe the saying that you reap what you sow. So I am going to sow even more and even harder and smarter so that what I reap will be up to my expectation. I can't possibly wish for the results without any effort right. I wont allow history to repeat itself. I WON'T let it happen!! I am so afraid.
Mr gorilla of mine. thx for being so patient with me. I wonder which other guy besides you and my dad can stand my horrible temper. I think you get it as bad as my mom hears it from me. HAHA! To think about it. Sometimes its just hillarious how often i loose it. Deardear.. I will be very caught up with my studies. I really want to do something from the best of me. Don't dampen my mood okay. Just keep encouraging me. I know maths is difficult to get a 1 but don't dampen it. I really want to get that 1. Its just hurtful when i think that you are looking down at me. When you are not.
I shan't get emo here. Night people
L1R5 - 15
L1R4 - 12
I am quite satisfied with what i have achieved. But I know i can do better. This issn't my best yet!
